About
‘I am who I am because of the choices I made and the principles I stood for along the way. We have to let our Spirit take us where we need to go. To keep lifting us up to where we belong, to be the light for others to follow’.
I’d always wondered about life and how it’s pieced together. It was definitely a preoccupation and central to my own personality, one of sorting out.
There was no living source I could turn to, or guide book to answer my most pressing questions. And I had often wished there was.
I have always been one of those contemplatives who spends a lot of time in their own company being highly productive in sleuthing. Not intentionally. It just happens that way. A thought would come to mind, nudged along by intrigue, and off it would take me to who knows where. I am a dreamer, a wanderer and a fervent enquirer to all there is to know about what makes us tick. And there is a lot know. Many life times worth and we would still only scratch the surface.
Life and people never made much sense to me, although the natural world did. I could never figure out why people were so conflicted in life. It is so beautiful to look at, easy to appreciate and yet held down by this destructive weight.
In many ways I was awake to what was going on around me, but also acutely aware of my own limitations and what this might mean to the interpretation of my own experiences.
I didn’t understand why possibilities fell so short and that potential was just that.
There was a vital element missing to the puzzle I was piecing together, a piece that was right under my nose but entirely invisible and unrealised.
I assumed people were their potential realised, taken for face value, not understanding that like me, they were just as perplexed by an incomplete mystery. One of trying to fit in, stand out, be seen. In other words, be loved in the only way they knew how. If no-one tells us how important it is to be in communion with this missing piece, we outwardly struggle against a destructive weight, consuming us wilfully.
What I did notice. People trying to bend the rules or make up their own rules to fit in with their world, but I knew from my school days life doesn’t work that way. (I used to wonder who was going to keep an eye on the boys and girls who run amuck once our school days were over). How naive I was.
The idea of lawlessness used to frighten me, but in those days most things frightened me. I knew I was bold and fearless in many ways, however my shyness dominated my vulnerability, but certainly not my sense of governing.
I had instinctively understood the quiet powerful presence of natures laws that spoke to me.
Living on earth comes with unconditional laws and if we try to move against the current of these laws, we physically feel it in our Heart, and what we feel in our Heart is mirrored in our experiences. These laws are there to protect us, help us and guide us, and if we really listen, they allow us to enjoy a relationship of co-creation that is pure, generous and full of beauty.
It is the firm gentle voice of a mother language that speaks through us.
When I felt the full crushing of my physical being against the emotional weight of what I was always fighting against I was genuinely startled to discover that the missing piece to my Self was what I always relied upon to navigate life and its complexities. I felt duly upset. My immediate response was, why did no-one tell me? Reassure me that the part of my Mind I was in tune with was in fact the part of my Self that was most essential to my understanding, for my balance and well-being.
I guess it wouldn’t be the journey of reclaiming my power, my full worth if the journey was so easy. We have to feel our experiences as deeply as we are able to, if we wish to help restore harmony and balance to a world where our humanity has faltered.
Our Spirit is everything to our well-being. For me, it is not a religion, or an ideology, but a very basic most simple fact to feeling strong in my Mind. Our life force is our Spirit and if it is crushed we lose our balance and we struggle to find our way.
Life is experiential for all of us. We each have a precious story to tell so we can help weave change into how we want our history to be told and how we want to imagine the future. My story is no exception.
I am here to help create a society of strong Minds so that over time the very systems and structures of governing that caused suffering to my Mind and to the Minds of so many can be changed. To do this work my Soul had to go where it needed to go for maximum learning. I met all the right people and lived and worked in the perfect environments to help me understand how to be a part of this change. I would not be qualified otherwise. It is the lessons we take and live by that strengthen the quality of our work.
It becomes easy to move with life and to accept people just as they are when you have felt the touch of suffering cupped lovingly and tenderly in your own hands. I get to hold the fullness of a human heart ever so carefully within my own. Life feels sweet because of this privilege. Life is held that bit more more precious than before. I see the smallest of insects going about their business. I remind my Self to take care in my movements.
Finding my voice has not been easy. As long as I am feeling my way in what I am doing, I can now use my voice to explain the intelligence behind my feelings. In my own way because this is my way.
I just take my time. I go slow. I let it come. And come it does. One day at a time.
The key is patience. Learning to listen over and over in harmony with the rain, the sun, the moon, the stars and the moving seasons. This is how it is when you live through your feelings, and this is ‘The Way’ of insight and wisdom to good governing, that which sits inside us all.
The work I do is motivated by a deep desire to restore good governance to the family home, and beyond, and the care factors that power our decision making. By exploring the enormity of our ideas about governing we have to understand the knowledge behind our feelings and the power they hold. And this means investigating our sense of identity, our beliefs and how we value care, all centred around our emotional intelligence.
There is a collapse within the mental structures of our humanity and this collapse has deepened because of where our Mind has learnt to put its sense of identity, thus skewing the way we value human life, which has impacted the lives of our children, our communities, our laws and our ideas about governing.
Together, we can reverse they way people identify with their Self and their surroundings. And restore what has been too long forgotten, until now. We all have the ability to use the incredibly powerful intelligence of our Mind for the wellbeing and happiness of everyone.
What I do and know
I talk about matters of the Heart.
The humbugs that skirt beneath the dusty cellar of our Mind.
I talk about Love. Its origin, its light infusing our veins all the time.
I talk about meeting our Mind.
Laying solid foundations rich in human frailty, beauty, courage and tenacity.
I talk about joining the dots of our own making with those whose permission we have constitutionally granted, at will, to ensure our proper care and protection.
I talk about being relational...
...values, valuable, valued.
And Listening.
Daring to courageously walk into the fog, to redirect our gaze.
To invite in a new stream of consciousness.
Values, valuable and value are all beautifully and intricately interlaced. Threaded together to help us form our relationships. I cannot tell anyone else what they should value and stand for. We have to feel our love and pain to know its meaning, and its true value of success and happiness. We all adjust our stance, and our perception as we move through life, and as we do, so does the way we see our wealth. Feel free to read on as I share my values, what I value and what is most valuable to the meaning of my happiness.
We were born to feel our way and as long as we are moving like a flowing river, we will always see life as a perfect image of our Self.